Monthly Archives: February 2015

Quitting Time (A Song)

Today
Today it feels like quitting time
And so I wait
Until I can find a fitting rhyme
Life is like
A class where we try to please the popular guys
And then we fly
Like smoke after the logs have died
And what’s the point?
We’re only here so short a time
And then destroyed
Betrayed by things that once kept us alive

So I wonder, wonder, wonder
And it all happens for nothing
And after each day’s blunder
I stumble upon something
It seems that the great mysteries
Are certain to still outlive me
And what’s the point in history
Knowing it would stay the same
Without me?

As I said
I think I’ll say again
It’s quitting time
What I mean to say
Is that these shoes of mine aren’t fitting right
The insoles
They slide up quite uncomfortably
And my soul
Seems to find nothing that’s comforting
Now I know
There’s no such thing as individual
Like the rain
One person is nothing but residual

And we all step in puddles
Because we don’t notice raindrops
We gather up in huddles
Hoping somehow that the pain will stop
And maybe that’s our trouble
The simple thing that we forgot
We live our lives in bubbles
Hoping desperately they will not pop
And kill our dreams

So I’m done
Yes, you might dare say I’m quitting time
Some days were fun
And other days just barely getting by

If it weren’t for the ones I love
I think I’d be alone
And to them I’m not good enough
I don’t call on the phone
I keep thinking one day soon
I’ll find out that they died
And as my tears fall every moon
I’ll still be asking why
As much as I might try to hide
It seems no place is safe
Eventually I’ll also die
It’s something no one can
Escape

As I said
This story is of quitting time
That’s for the dead
You can’t quit time when you’re alive

Ode to a Princess (A Song)

You and I,
Floating through the stars
Hand-in-hand and
Heart-to-heart
By my side
Forever in my mind
To the edge of space
And the end of time
In this continuum
We’ll continue on
Now I can navigate
With you as my North Star

When I’m falling and
Near event horizon
I find I rise again
When you pull me in
If I lose all hope
Of seeing my way home
You’re my telescope
When you hold me close
If I feel cold space
Pull you away from me
I’ll be your solid place
I’ll be your gravity

It’s for you I yearn
Like a young sun burns
And as our whole world turns
I hope that I’ll still earn
A chance at orbiting
‘Round you in everything
I’ll leave a life of love
Written for us above
And when it’s all over
And I supernova
When you see these things
I hope you’ll dream of me

Commentary:

This is a song inspired by a story idea I had, kind of a Star Wars/Flash Gordon/The Last Starfighter-inspired story. It had a romantic element and I really liked the music I had in my head for it. I really should learn to play piano or something. I wouldn’t mind making a YouTube video with the music I have in mind for this and my other songs. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it.

I’ve been posting a lot of my old songs–actually this one isn’t that old, I wrote it maybe a year or two ago–just because I wanted to share them. Let’s face it, I’m not going to become a famous songwriter, nor is that even necessarily my dream, but I love so many of the songs I’ve written that I wanted to make sure my eyes weren’t the only ones seeing them. If I could sing and play an instrument, I would have already recorded these and put them on YouTube, just because. But I can’t do either particularly well. But that’s enough out of me. Until next time.

Just As Much (A Song)

Just as much as I daydream of you
Just as much of my dreams can’t be true
All of them
So none of them
You’re one of them
Now once again
Just as much you were once part of us
Just as much you were all I could trust
Just one love
Just one dream
Just a hope
Of you and me

Hurts just as much
As it did years ago
Worth just as much
Though you’ll never know
Just as much of pain and
Just as much remains
Just as much of you
To love

Just as much I see you smile at me
Just as much as I hoped it could be
Just a fall and
Just a winter
Just not gone yet
Just can’t forget her
Just as much I held onto my pride
Just as much pushed you to the outside
Instead of love
Just my fears
Just not enough
To keep you here

Hurts just as much
As it did years ago
Worth just as much
Though you’ll never know
Just as much of pain and
Just as much remains
Just as much of you
To love

Just as much of you here now to lose
Just as much impossible to choose
Just as much a loss
Just as much a cost and
Just as many tears
Just because you’re not here
Just as much I cannot say goodbye
Just as much I’m just wanting to cry
Just as much regret and
Just can’t pay respects
Just cannot accept
Just breaking down what little’s left

Hurts just as much
As it did years ago
Worth just as much
Though you’ll never know
Just as much of pain and
Just as much remains
Just as much of you
To love

I can’t pretend that
You’re just another girl
I can’t pretend that
You’re not my whole world
Just a love
Just a fool
Just won’t give up
This little piece that’s left of you
Because it’s just as much
As I have to love
Of you

Tempted to Dream–Part 4 (A Song)

All of the waiting
So much hesitating
From me
I’ve run from my destiny
But no more debating
No more entertaining
A dream
Let’s make it reality

Just for a moment
Just for an instant
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

So what is our future?
What will we make it?
I hope
We’ll have an answer this time
But I know this for sure
As long as we’re taking
It slow
I know that we will be fine

Just for a moment
Just for an instant
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

So I’ll see you soon, love
Beneath a half-moon
Under the stars
Till we can be what we are
If you asked me, what are we?
I’d say we’re a family
In our hearts
Just waiting for life to start

Just for a moment
And in every minute
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

Tempted to Dream, Part 3 (A Song)

I talked to my father
He said to be patient
With you
Because we’ve only begun
I spoke with my doctor
He said to his patient,
“Do you
Maybe think she’s the one?”

And just for a moment
Just for an instant
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

I know that you love me
I hope you will trust me
To be
The father your daughter needs
I know that you’re lovely
That you’re really something
To me
I promise I’ll never leave

Not just for a moment
It’s very insistent
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

You may have your problems
Perhaps we can solve them
As one
Together we can be strong
You don’t have to need me
But you can believe me
I’ll run
To you whenever you call

It’s this very moment
And each little instance
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

Tempted to Dream, Part 2 (A Song)

Don’t get me wrong, love
You’re doing the right thing
For you
And probably for me, too
If ours is a strong love
Then it’s worth the waiting
But still
It’s not a moment too soon

But just for a moment
Just for an instant
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

I wanted to see you
I’m trying to be patient
And wait
Because you’re still far away
Is it sinful to need you
Or to not want to leave you
Today?
If so, I can’t help it anyway

Just for a moment
Just for an instant
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

Just know that I miss you
And know that I’m with you
I’m here
I keep you safe in my heart
My love, I forgive you
You help me to get through
The years
Till we’re no longer apart

Just for a moment
The moment I live in
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

My Paradise (A Song)

Deeply in love
With you here
Can’t get enough
Of you near
There in your eyes
Is my paradise
Lost in your eyes
Lost in your smile
Your smile

Feelings that I
Never knew
Really inside
I loved you
Ours is a story
Yet to unfold
Ours is a love
Yet to be told
Don’t disappear
Like a dream
Now that you’re here
I believe
I can be happy
And make you the same
Call out my name
With me forever stay

Deeply in love
With you here
Can’t get enough
Of you near
There in your eyes
Is my paradise
Lost in your eyes
Lost in your smile
Your smile

Days can be years
If you need
I’ll wipe your tears
So you’ll see
Love is forever
When we’re together
Here, safe and warm
As if reborn
Living a life
Very new
Giving my wife
My ‘I do’
Joined like the stars are
Embedded in our hearts
So far beyond
All I could want
So far

Deeply in love
With you here
Can’t get enough
Of you near
There in your eyes
Is my paradise
Lost in your eyes
Lost in your smile
Your smile

And as we love
We will grow
Bright as the sun
We will glow
Pain’s temporary
Hurts can be buried
Our love is pure
It will endure
For sure

Deeply in love
With you here
Can’t get enough
Of you near
There in your eyes
Is my paradise
Lost in your eyes
Lost in your smile
Your smile

Commentary:

I was inspired to write this by music from a Star Trek (Original Series, Season 1) episode called “This Side of Paradise”, where Spock falls in love. (Apparently it was used in more than one episode, the other one being “Shore Leave”, which I didn’t realize until I read about it…but I digress.) It was such a beautiful melody that I thought it’d be great if it was a song, too. Link to the music from ‘Trek’:

Tempted to Dream — Part 1 (A Song)

Wouldn’t you know it?
Just like a desert
When it rains
You brought me back to life
Allowed me to hope that
We’d have forever
It’s strange
That you disappeared one last time

Just for a moment
Just for an instant
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

You’re here for an hour
Or maybe a lifetime
It feels
Like I’m no longer lonely
That is your power
Over my heart and
My mind
If only time could go slowly

Just for a moment
Just for an instant
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

So why do I wake up
And why can’t we make up
For time
That was lost when you left me
It feels like a breakup
Each time that I think that
You’re mine
Sometimes the pain is so heavy

And yet
Just for a moment
Just for an instant
It’s true
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

Just for a moment
Just for forever
I do
I let myself dream
Because that’s all I can see
I’m tempted to dream
Of you

Commentary:

This one, like many of my songs, is from real experience. It was inspired by the woman who has been my wife for 5 years now. There was a time when it seemed everything was trying to keep us apart, and…it was a pretty angst-ridden time for me. With the realities of married life, sometimes it’s good to remember a time like that, when everything I wanted in life was her. I don’t know that that ever changed, but sometimes other things get in the way. It’s helpful to refocus and remember why I made the vow in the first place. Well, enough of that. Hope you liked it. The song has four parts, so I’ll be posting the other parts at another time.

Carousel of Love (A Song)

Checking my claim
To see if you are meant for someone else
Hold up my name
So I can see that you might suit me well
So many hearts
But in the end they all just look alike
I’ll carry on
Until my time to find the one that’s right

I’m spinning round and round alone
Yet your face remains unknown
But I’ve come to take you home
From the carousel of love
I’ve been waiting just to see
When you come around to me
We will meet, it’s destiny
At the carousel of love

Are you lost?
Or is it that your flight just got delayed?
At any cost
I hope somehow that you will find a way
Into my heart
My smile is bright the day you come along
We’ll never part
Not after waiting so very long

I’m spinning round and round alone
Yet your face remains unknown
But I’ve come to take you home
From the carousel of love
I’ve been waiting just to see
When you come around to me
We will meet, it’s destiny
At the carousel of love

I’m holding up
Just waiting for the day when you show up
Don’t give up
Trust that I’ll find you baby, soon enough
Love is rough
But I marked you as ‘handle please with care’
You know what?
I’ll do my part for sure, I will be there

I’m spinning round and round alone
Yet your face remains unknown
But I’ve come to take you home
From the carousel of love
I’ve been waiting just to see
When you come around to me
Our love is our destiny
At the carousel of love
Coming from the skies, down from above
We’ll meet at the carousel of love

Commentary:

This one, and my previous post, “Tell Me”, are both old songs. I wrote this one while I was at an airport, of course. I imagined it’d have an old R&B feel, maybe something of the ’60s or ’70s vibe. So, here it is…

Tell Me (A Song)

Tell me please that it’s okay
Tell me it was an unhappy dream
I’m drowning and forever lost
Deep beneath this unhappy stream
I try to open up my eyes
And see your face within the shades of gray
There’s something I just can’t deny
The very love that makes me want to stay
And yet you’ve gone away

Tell me that you love me still
Tell me please that I’m the only one
If you can and if you will
Stay with me until my life is done
Tell me anything you wish
And I will just believe
Tell me I’m the one you miss
Please, my sweet
Just tell me

We pass by each other’s lives
Like two ships that do not have their sails
Look deeply into my eyes and
See I don’t want our love to fail
Yet you’re just a memory
An open cut inside my bleeding heart
And you’re so much more to me
Your absence makes my heart so deeply fond
And you’re the one I wish to gaze upon

Tell me that you love me still
Tell me please that I’m the only one
If you can and if you will
Stay with me until my life is done
Tell me anything you wish
And I will just believe
Tell me I’m the one you miss
Please, my sweet
Just tell me

Tell me you’re in love with me
Tell me that you care
Tell me I’m the one you see
Always standing there
Tell me that you are my bride
And tell me I’m your groom
Tell me that I have the right
To speak to you real soon
Don’t tell me things like we are through
Don’t tell me stay away
I’m so consumed in love for you
I’m asking when I pray
For you to be brought back inside
From the world so cold
For you to be my wedded wife
From now till we are old
And on beyond forever more
An unconditional
Love that makes us so secure
Onto each other we shall hold

Tell me that you love me still
Tell me that I am the only one
If you can and if you will
Stay with me until my life is done
Tell me anything you wish
And I will just believe
Tell me I’m the one you miss
Please, my sweet
Just tell me