Blame Me

Half a heart and
Half a man
Have you gone far away?
Is that your plan?
Coming home and
Can’t hear the children playing
So alone
‘Cause I couldn’t make you stay with me
Breaking down
When I see a picture of innocence and love
The only sound
Is the emptiness from what I’ve given up

You can blame me
Because I’m changing
But I’m the same me
And I’m sorry that
I ever made you leave
You can blame me
For the same things
But I’ve been waiting
‘Cause our love has died and I
Can hardly breathe

“Sign the papers,”
She said, as if that were a simple thing
But I don’t hate her
I’m saddened that she started to hate me
I tried to save her
It seems my cape pulled me out of the sky
And now or later
I’m feeling like I’ve been ripped out to die
My heart is crying out on every night
I don’t sleep as well without her by my side

You can blame me
Because I’m changing
But I’m the same me
And I’m sorry that
I ever made you leave
You can blame me
For the same things
But I’ve been waiting
‘Cause our love has died and I
Can hardly breathe

I’m feeling older
Because behind each smile of mine
Is deepest pain
So is it over?
I feel like I will never
Live down the shame
You should know that
I cherished every moment
Here with you
But I can’t go back
Not unless you change your mind
And love me too
I don’t think that’s something
You will ever do

You can blame me
Because I’m changing
But I’m the same me
And I’m sorry that
I ever made you leave
You can blame me
For the same things
But I’ve been waiting
‘Cause our love has died and I
Can hardly breathe

 

Commentary:

This and my previous song, “Obsessed”, are inspired by true events.  I was inspired to write “Obsessed” because I realized I hadn’t really delved into the intimate side of love, and the chorus popped into my head, in typical fashion, while I was trying to go to bed.  I’m usually a bit squeamish as far as writing about that sort of thing, but I decided to try it anyway.  (What am I thinking about at bedtime?  Probably something I’m unlikely to be doing anytime soon…so there you have it.)

“Blame Me” also came out of nowhere, and it seemed fitting to write about the end of a relationship just as I’d written about the beginning.  This is not a song I wrote because my marriage is ending (at least not that I am aware of), but is instead inspired by a time when it was in jeopardy and she was gone, nearly five years ago.  I often think about that time, but I’ve never written any songs about it until today.  Thanks for reading.  I appreciate the few likes I have gotten and I hope to keep writing more.  Hopefully, I have written something at some point that touches someone’s heart out there.

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