Monthly Archives: January 2017

Lost My Hope

Hurry to work
And hurry home
Try to hide the hurt
Pretend I’m not alone
And the pain in me
The deepest grief
To the same degree
From the day you leave
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Let the TV run
Just to have some noise
Think of the children
My wonderful girl and boy
And it breaks me down
‘Cause I see them again
I hear their voices
Can’t breathe again
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

There’s an empty bed
And an empty fridge
Ever since you left
And took the kids
There’s an empty heart
Where your love has been
For a moment I forgot
But now it’s back again
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Seasons change
When you go away
From the hardest fall
To the bitter winter
It’s not the same
When you can’t look my way
And even when you call again
My heart, it wants to stall again
I love and miss you
But it’s so hard to be strong
So you were right
And I was wrong
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Listen

Melancholy
Whenever you call me
I play like it’s
Alright
Good night
Sleep tight
And then I just say goodbye
I’m falling
Just like you taught me
But I am so scared
You can’t
Be there
Hit the floor ‘fore you caught me

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

Every so often
Feels like I’ve forgotten
And then you find me
Blind me
Remind me
And it’s like time’s rewinding
I’m no one anymore
Don’t know what I’m looking for
I wish you’d hold me
Like you told me
I’m only
Hoping for what is no more
Or hoping for some just reward
Or hoping you’ll come through that door

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

So you’re going
And now I’m here lonely
Seems like the loving
Was nothing
But stuffing
Now it’s empty in there
Love doesn’t know how to spare
It teaches you how not to care

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

Does it even make a difference?
Does your leaving make any sense?
I don’t know if it can
So close your eyes and listen

 

Half-Empty Table for Two

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

Better days in the shade
And someone to take this chair away
And what can I do with these plates?
And what can I do with this place?
What do I do with this space?
I’m here and I can’t see your face
I found out I could be replaced
And nothing in my world is safe
I will never be the same
I wonder if you’ll change your name

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

New love to find me
But love has bad timing
You still remind me
Of what was behind me
And why can’t I get over you?
Because I can’t get someone new
I’ve still got pairs of your shoes
And brushes for all your hairdos
And photos of you everywhere
And I still think this isn’t fair
I know that we both truly care
So why aren’t you here and not there?

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

Spring, summer, fall
Anniversaries
Graduation days
Flowers and candy
Holding hands
And a kiss
Making love
As you wish
Nothing I’d dare forget
Nothing I’d dare regret
So much that I miss
What did I do to this?
I didn’t give you my best

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for
You
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for
You
Nothing else that I can do
With this half-empty table for two

Raps of the Christopherian Realm #32

King Christopher watched
The medics treat her
And wondered what force
Could have managed to defeat her
And who would dare to
Harm the Empress Thea?
Whoever did it could be
A threat to her career

“Is she conscious yet?
We need to put a stop to this–
Whoever is responsible
Could know who bombed Congress!”

“She’s unconscious now,
But she’s stable.
The wound was quite grievous,
But not likely fatal.”

“Summon me, doctor,
As soon as she is able
To communicate.
We need all cards on the table.”

“Your Highness, a word?”

“Of course, Lyselle, what is it?”

“We’re tracking an energy source
That’s quite different.
The caliber of the weapon used
Was strong,
But not what the Netherworld uses–
Rather odd.”

“So you’re saying one of
Our people did it?”

“Our LPF sentry’s report
Is quite significant.
A fleeing vessel that
Has claimed to be a medic’s ship–
Its departure was authorized
By the President.
I hate to say it, but
It can’t be coincidence.
The timing coincides with
The timing of this incident.”

The King was stunned and said:
“Get a secure line.
I want to speak to
The President at this time.”

The President picked up
And said, “Ah, the King.
How goes it there,
In the land of no suffering?
Tell me, is the weather
There lovely?
I’d hate to hear your voice on
A secure line for nothing.”

“You play the innocent but
Your guilt betrays you.
It seems that the Entity
Has been betrayed, too.”

“Well, it was you who
Wanted me to pray to
The dictatorship she brought
‘Twas just a prelude.
I swore an oath
To protect our people’s Kingdom.
My flag is green
And it represents our freedom.
It bears the honor
Of the souls that we’ve lost
And I will not betray it
No matter what the cost.
You’ve been deceived
By an imitation goddess–
She’s blinded your perception
And isn’t being honest.”

“Well then the burden of proof
Is on you.
Either way, you tried
An ill-fated coup.
Are you behind the
Attack on our Congress?”

“Of that great tragedy,
I have no knowledge.”

“You’ll understand if
I simply don’t believe you.
The bomb must have been
Meant for her, now I see you–
For all your kind words,
You’re unfaithful.
For all of Thea’s blessings,
You are ungrateful.”

“Christopher, she’s killed
Her own people!
Can’t you see the truth?
Empress Thea is evil!
She doesn’t care about
Us being equal!
The Battle of the MCI Center
Deceived you!
There are forces far greater
At work,
And if only you’ll be patient,
You’ll realize it’s worth it.”

“You’ve committed
An act of civil war.
On my authority,
The Agency is no more.
You were supposed to be
Investigating treason!
Now you’ve succumbed
To a false line of reasoning!
I will bring you in,
Or else attack you.”

“Then both kings and presidents
Will do what they have to.
So understand
You are up against the better man.
You’ll move against the Agency?
I hope you have a better plan.
Oh, and tell Empress Thea
Get well soon.
If you really hope to win
I suggest you bring her with you.”

King Christopher hung up
The phone,
And for a long while,
He stood there alone
With an expression
On his face that was sore
He said, “All commands:
Now we go forth to war.
We believe the unfaithful
Are all found
In league with the President
At Agency Compound.
We will wage one last fight
For our nation.
Hence it will be
The Battle of Termination.
Gather the fleet,
And get to your stations.
All citizens
Must face this situation…”

Meanwhile, Christoph–
He slowly smiled
As he said, “So it ends at last–
It took awhile.
Give them the ultimate power
Or but a taste,
And how easily a man
Will make his fall from grace.
Now to get Chris and Scepter
There in haste.
Now, at last,
All the pieces are in place….”

Raps of the Christopherian Realm #31

The medevac vessels
Were trying to stay level
And approaching atmosphere
The medics were disheveled
Frustrated, awaiting
Some good news
Something other than
Counting dead for them to do
There were multiple cases
Of head trauma
And now there were reports
Of a starfleet bomber
On approach
As a regular patrol
An expression of the Empress’
Tightening controls:

“We are authorized to use
Max force
On your vessels.
You are commanded to change course!
Turn around and be
Escorted for landing.
It’s the way to clear up
This misunderstanding.”

“This is Charlie Green–
Do not fire!
We have some people wounded
And our help is required.
This is a medical ship–”

“But you’re escaping!
If you go out in space
We’re authorized to waste you!
You’re what she warned us about–
The unfaithful!
And traitors take their resting place
Inside the grave, fool!”

“Bombing vessel,
This is now your President.
Attacks on a medical vessel
Are unprecedented.
They depart with
Clearance straight from me.
And I strongly suggest
That you leave them be.
Unless you want me
To share this with the Empress?
She worked here, you know.
I used to sit next to her desk.”

“S-sorry, sir!
Medevac may proceed!”

“Thank you so much.
Charlie Green, with due speed.”

And so Resistance Regiment
Managed to escape
It wouldn’t be the last time
That they would tempt fate…

In the heart of darkness
Blows reaching targets
Chris and Scepter fought
To see who hit hardest
Chris dodges
And Scepter blocks it and drops in
With fists, feet, elbows
And knees bringing scarlet
Time froze
And the ground became a meteor
Scepter grabbed a mound of dirt
And swung it speedier
He hit Chris with
A ton of dirty bricks–
Quite a dirty trick
But it’s the evil
That he’s worried with
Chris swings a fist
And breaks the rocks up
Scepter flies at him
Chris swings and he gets knocked up
Into the sky
Where they let fly the haymakers
Chris just waylays
With a couple of face-breakers
It’s a melee
The hate opened a gateway
It became plain
There’d never be a safe way
To put an end to
This struggle with his enemy
His hands glowing white
He embraced his full energy

You can’t hope
To change the situation!
Scepter said, “I am your
True manifestation!
We should have stood together
Like two towers
Now you will yield
To a much higher power!
And the very same chains
That you gave me
Will be used now to place
Yourself into slavery!
You can’t hate
The same thing you care about
That’s the path
You’ll now face within the Paradox!

Chris blasted him
With beams of white light
Kept blasting till he fell
Through the ground and out of sight
He pursued him
To the planet’s core
The heat was unbearable
They matched blows some more
Scepter grabbed Chris
Put hands on his throat
To another plane of
Existence they would go…

King Christopher
Took a small squad
To look for the Empress
She’d been gone too long:

“We should have given her
Proper guards,
Or at least some kind of escort
That was fully armed.”

“Your Highness, come in.
This is Theta Squad.
We’ve picked up a signal
And something’s kind of odd.
One life form, human,
I would say,
And located in the sector
Seven thirty-eight.”

“Copy that, Theta Squad–
We’re on our way.
Go meet the bomber
That let the ship escape.
And stay alert–
There were signs of a battle.
Garg could be out there
His army has scattered.”

The Empress could be in danger,
The King gathered,
As he looked out the window
His heart nearly shattered
A woman face down
Lying in the grass
With a pool of blood
Beneath her, spreading fast
“Land! Now!”
Came his command
And he raced from his ship
To take Thea’s hand
He turned her over
And her face was pale
He feared she wouldn’t live to
Tell of the tale….