Monthly Archives: March 2017

I Miss My Little Girl

You always saw the world
A little different
And I’d just smile
And go with it
So clever and
I’d say you’re plenty gifted
I’ll never know
What I’ve been missing

Too far away now
To help you shape the world
I miss my little girl
I’d find a way somehow
To save you from this world
I miss my little girl

So silly and
You’d always make new friends
I wish that I
Could trust like you
Learn how to be
So innocent again
And run and play
Just like you

Too far away now
To help you shape the world
I miss my little girl
I’d find a way somehow
To save you from this world
I miss my little girl

You’ve gone away
And that makes me feel so sad
And by the way
I will always be your dad
Nothing can change
All the special times we had
The memories will help
To not make it so bad

So much has changed, though
Without you in my world
I miss my little girl
I hope one day to see you
Save us from the world
I miss my little girl

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I Miss My Little Boy

When I see the TV shows
You watched
Or look at the Legos
You dropped
I see that smile
And those big bright eyes
So much joy
In such a little size

Now you’ve been taken
And part of me’s destroyed
I miss my little boy
I’m still tripping
On those old toys
I miss my little boy

I try not to remember
Because it breaks me down again
Look at me, the great pretender
Trying to hide my frown again
She let me bathe you
One last time
Not even knowing that
I’d be saying goodbye

Now you’ve been taken
And part of me’s destroyed
I miss my little boy
I’m still tripping
On those old toys
I miss my little boy

I miss the comics
And the books we used to read
I’ll send it your way
If there’s anything you need
You’re my future
And somehow you’re my past
I’d give you the whole world
Just to hear you ask
I thought I’d write these words
To help me face the pain
But it doesn’t help the hurt
Some wounds always remain

Now you’ve been taken
And part of me’s destroyed
I miss my little boy
I still have memories
I’ll cherish and enjoy
But I still miss my little boy

Broken Promises

 

The winds of change
Can’t erode
This heart of stone
I’m in some pain
And I’m alone
Here, on my own
Last night
I dreamed of you
What can I do?
It’s not right
I didn’t mean to
Do this to you

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

Will I forget
The touch of your hand?
Don’t think I can
But my regret
Is I haven’t been
More of a man
You opened the door
I watched you walk through
What you’re looking for, I
Couldn’t give it to you

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

So why’d you disappear
When I need you here?
It’s so very clear
That I don’t have to fear
If I feel you near

In daydreams
You wiped my tears away
And smiled at me
Then decided to stay
What good are dreams
As if movie scenes
Just the same pretending
With a happy ending?
Even fools could see
That we’d never be
But it was worth the trying
Although I feel like dying

And I did
I died for you
In the end
What good did it do?

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

Estranged, A Lament of Love

Love is for the brave,
They say
But I’m afraid
Of its chains
And afraid
Of the change
Nothing that’s great
Comes without
Many pains
Look at how easily
It’s estranged

I looked up
You were gone
As if I
Did you wrong
I was weak
But a man should be strong
Have you forgotten we
Made a promise to be
One of body
For the world to see?

When a woman is new
Look what love makes me do
Run and hide
Like a boy still in school
Like the force
Of the moon
Pulls me closer
And soon
I will act out the role
Of the fool

I have no great armor
For love, it is stronger
It cleaves eager hearts
Into two
It turns back to stab
Me, and grabs
What I have
Precious time, precious hope
Sacred memories
It acts without honor
Or mercy, it’s harder
Than stone
I’m alone
On my knees
It makes lovers glad
And it still makes me sad
For I know what was stolen
From me

Tears in the rain
As I patiently wait
For the lie to deceive me again
Ever the same
It awaits to betray
I cannot waste my dreams here again
So the fear, guilt and shame
Are all that here remain
As the altar I built is now ash
What can be gained
From a life lived this way
When the future is more of the past?

Love is for the brave,
They say
But I’m afraid
Of its chains
And afraid
Of the change
Nothing that’s great
Comes without
Many pains
Look at how easily
It’s estranged
I will not let it blind me again
I will war with it until the end
It’s a lie, not worth dying for and
What a dangerous trap
To fall in

Love is insane
Not a game to be played
It will empty you out
All the same
And then fill you with rage
Send you through every stage
It’s a tragedy
Waiting to happen
To you
I hate what it can do
I hate love and love
Hates me too
I hate love
And love
Hates me too