Monthly Archives: May 2018

The Sooner That You Know

Sounds like
You’re still in love with her
From everything
That you felt and heard
The door is open
And you are hoping
But your heart is broken
From every word unspoken
But how will you know
If you should really part
If you let go
Without telling her what’s on your heart?

The sooner that you know
The sooner you can see
I want you to go
But don’t want you to leave

Tonight
I couldn’t sleep again
Tears from my eyes
As I contemplate the end
The door is closing
And yet the time is frozen
This isn’t what I’ve chosen
I don’t know where I’m going
To
There is no path here without you
And my mind
Could never be made up
To accept a breakup
I cannot bear the weight of
Living without you

The sooner that you know
The sooner you can see
I want you to go
But don’t want you to leave

I’m crushed
From the memory of your touch
Every day it is too much
Is it like that for
The both of us?
Can we
Ever learn from history?
Or are we just supposed to leave?
So what
And who is there left to trust?
I can paint a picture of us
And it’s rosy
But you’re not there
To hold me
So be
Live your life and leave me here to bleed

The sooner that you know
The sooner you can see
I want you to go
But don’t want you to leave

 

Commentary:

Alright, this one is actually inspired by real feelings.  There is a sense of confusion about my marriage, even though it’s existed in name only for a year and a half now.  I wrote this one late at night when I couldn’t sleep.  Last night, actually.  In some ways it is fitting to have it be so conflicted.  I have never really been able to share my deepest feelings with her, and I am not sure she would even be open to them, in some cases.  But there’s nothing more that can be said or done now, I suppose.  I just needed to get the feelings out, that’s all.  I hope I don’t feel compelled to keep writing about heartbreak in the future.  I just miss going home to someone, not having to miss someone.  But maybe I wasn’t a good enough husband, so…guess I just had it coming.  Songs can’t fix any of that, nor would I want them to.  I know there aren’t that many of you out there, but I’m always thankful for you.  As always, thanks for reading.

A Lie Put To Music

I fall in love with you
Suddenly I’m a poet
I’ve given you my heart
You ran away and stole it
It’s not as if you’re moved
By anything I wrote then
I couldn’t get to you
Through all the things we’ve broken

It’s a lie put to music
So why even do it?
It really is quite useless
It’s a lie put to music
So why don’t we remove it?
Why put us through that?

You could be someone new
Or who I gave my life to
What does it matter who?
I’m just a guy you’ll lie to
No matter what I feel
I’ll never even say so
I can’t imagine real
When love is so painful

It’s a lie put to music
So why even do it?
It really is quite useless
It’s a lie put to music
So why don’t we remove it?
Why put us through that?

All these false songs
When love is wrong
The feeling’s so strong
But doesn’t belong
And it doesn’t take long
To make a man fall
And love crushes all
With its mad siren’s call

It’s a lie put to music
So why even do it?
It really is quite useless
A lie put to music
So why don’t we remove it?
Why put us through that?
A lie put to music
Isn’t an improvement
I haven’t met the truth yet
Or is it in this song?
Is it in this song?
Is it in this song?
Is it in this song?