I Miss My Little Girl

You always saw the world
A little different
And I’d just smile
And go with it
So clever and
I’d say you’re plenty gifted
I’ll never know
What I’ve been missing

Too far away now
To help you shape the world
I miss my little girl
I’d find a way somehow
To save you from this world
I miss my little girl

So silly and
You’d always make new friends
I wish that I
Could trust like you
Learn how to be
So innocent again
And run and play
Just like you

Too far away now
To help you shape the world
I miss my little girl
I’d find a way somehow
To save you from this world
I miss my little girl

You’ve gone away
And that makes me feel so sad
And by the way
I will always be your dad
Nothing can change
All the special times we had
The memories will help
To not make it so bad

So much has changed, though
Without you in my world
I miss my little girl
I hope one day to see you
Save us from the world
I miss my little girl

I Miss My Little Boy

When I see the TV shows
You watched
Or look at the Legos
You dropped
I see that smile
And those big bright eyes
So much joy
In such a little size

Now you’ve been taken
And part of me’s destroyed
I miss my little boy
I’m still tripping
On those old toys
I miss my little boy

I try not to remember
Because it breaks me down again
Look at me, the great pretender
Trying to hide my frown again
She let me bathe you
One last time
Not even knowing that
I’d be saying goodbye

Now you’ve been taken
And part of me’s destroyed
I miss my little boy
I’m still tripping
On those old toys
I miss my little boy

I miss the comics
And the books we used to read
I’ll send it your way
If there’s anything you need
You’re my future
And somehow you’re my past
I’d give you the whole world
Just to hear you ask
I thought I’d write these words
To help me face the pain
But it doesn’t help the hurt
Some wounds always remain

Now you’ve been taken
And part of me’s destroyed
I miss my little boy
I still have memories
I’ll cherish and enjoy
But I still miss my little boy

Broken Promises

 

The winds of change
Can’t erode
This heart of stone
I’m in some pain
And I’m alone
Here, on my own
Last night
I dreamed of you
What can I do?
It’s not right
I didn’t mean to
Do this to you

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

Will I forget
The touch of your hand?
Don’t think I can
But my regret
Is I haven’t been
More of a man
You opened the door
I watched you walk through
What you’re looking for, I
Couldn’t give it to you

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

So why’d you disappear
When I need you here?
It’s so very clear
That I don’t have to fear
If I feel you near

In daydreams
You wiped my tears away
And smiled at me
Then decided to stay
What good are dreams
As if movie scenes
Just the same pretending
With a happy ending?
Even fools could see
That we’d never be
But it was worth the trying
Although I feel like dying

And I did
I died for you
In the end
What good did it do?

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

Estranged, A Lament of Love

Love is for the brave,
They say
But I’m afraid
Of its chains
And afraid
Of the change
Nothing that’s great
Comes without
Many pains
Look at how easily
It’s estranged

I looked up
You were gone
As if I
Did you wrong
I was weak
But a man should be strong
Have you forgotten we
Made a promise to be
One of body
For the world to see?

When a woman is new
Look what love makes me do
Run and hide
Like a boy still in school
Like the force
Of the moon
Pulls me closer
And soon
I will act out the role
Of the fool

I have no great armor
For love, it is stronger
It cleaves eager hearts
Into two
It turns back to stab
Me, and grabs
What I have
Precious time, precious hope
Sacred memories
It acts without honor
Or mercy, it’s harder
Than stone
I’m alone
On my knees
It makes lovers glad
And it still makes me sad
For I know what was stolen
From me

Tears in the rain
As I patiently wait
For the lie to deceive me again
Ever the same
It awaits to betray
I cannot waste my dreams here again
So the fear, guilt and shame
Are all that here remain
As the altar I built is now ash
What can be gained
From a life lived this way
When the future is more of the past?

Love is for the brave,
They say
But I’m afraid
Of its chains
And afraid
Of the change
Nothing that’s great
Comes without
Many pains
Look at how easily
It’s estranged
I will not let it blind me again
I will war with it until the end
It’s a lie, not worth dying for and
What a dangerous trap
To fall in

Love is insane
Not a game to be played
It will empty you out
All the same
And then fill you with rage
Send you through every stage
It’s a tragedy
Waiting to happen
To you
I hate what it can do
I hate love and love
Hates me too
I hate love
And love
Hates me too

Blue November

“You know I’m not coming back”
Fade to black
Looks like it’s love that I lacked
Face the facts
Feels like you’re still in the air
It’s captured you
But really you’ve gone over there
Haven’t you?

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

I took all your books off the shelves
Your pictures too
As if I could somehow dispel
The myth of you
But I can’t let go of the ring
The promise made
I still feel the touch of your hand
As you fall away

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

I can see you on the steps
It’s as if you never left
I’m never catching my breath
Love lost can feel like it’s death
I never will be the same
Cannot stand hearing your name
Maybe one day that will change
But wouldn’t that be very strange
To go
Through this life alone
You know
This was your home

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

The Heartache

I could fall in love again
A thousand times
And what good would it do?
Never got enough of you
By my side
And with all I went through
But it didn’t benefit
Seems you were better when
I wasn’t there
Now it’s me you’re getting rid of
Now it’s you the one who’s fed up
And me here so scared

But I’ll survive
The heartache
I’m alive
In heartache
You were mine
My heartache
But in time
The heartache
Will make me just fine

Still surprised to find
Some clothes that smell like
Just like you do
I see your eyes inside
This hole in my life
Just like I used to
I’m speaking to you on the phone
I’m bleeding through and feeling so alone
And it’s all so unreal
Wondering what’s going on
Wondering what’s going wrong
That got us both here

But I’ll survive
The heartache
I’m alive
In heartache
You were mine
My heartache
But in time
The heartache
Will make me just fine

Or maybe not
Does she hate me not?
Or hate me so bad
Maybe we forgot
Just how great it got
Before we were sad
From a distance you
You seem so different too
Like through rose-colored glass
And it hits me too
From a certain point of view
We were in love in the past

Why couldn’t we make it last
The heartache
What we had
Was heartbreak
All I am
Is heartache
Can’t really stand
The heartache
It’s breaking me down
But I won’t make a sound

When You Come This Way Again

Our last moment, it lasts
Even though the past is the past
I gave you all that I am
I put a ring on your hand
So now I don’t understand
Why I’m not part of your plan

When you come this way again
I wonder will it be intense
I want to know if we will end
And what if we can be again?
When you come this way again
Are you really going to leave again?
Or maybe make-believe again
And give me what I’ve seen again?
When you come this way again

I’ve given more than I asked
Forgiven more than I can
I’d forfeit all that I have
If I could just have you back
All of the love that we had
Until the day that you ran

When you come this way again
I wonder will it be intense
I want to know if we will end
And what if we can be again?
When you come this way again
Are you really going to leave again?
Or maybe make-believe again
And give me what I’ve seen again?
When you come this way again

Your memory
Is stronger than I am
You’ll never be
Out of second chances
What you do to me
Has gotten out of hand
You’re fooling me,
And I would fall right in
And we would fall in love and then
And then…

When you come this way again
It would be a love intense
It would make zero sense
And maybe we would see the end
But I don’t believe I can
I won’t let go of your hand

When you come this way again

Lost My Hope

Hurry to work
And hurry home
Try to hide the hurt
Pretend I’m not alone
And the pain in me
The deepest grief
To the same degree
From the day you leave
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Let the TV run
Just to have some noise
Think of the children
My wonderful girl and boy
And it breaks me down
‘Cause I see them again
I hear their voices
Can’t breathe again
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

There’s an empty bed
And an empty fridge
Ever since you left
And took the kids
There’s an empty heart
Where your love has been
For a moment I forgot
But now it’s back again
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Seasons change
When you go away
From the hardest fall
To the bitter winter
It’s not the same
When you can’t look my way
And even when you call again
My heart, it wants to stall again
I love and miss you
But it’s so hard to be strong
So you were right
And I was wrong
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Listen

Melancholy
Whenever you call me
I play like it’s
Alright
Good night
Sleep tight
And then I just say goodbye
I’m falling
Just like you taught me
But I am so scared
You can’t
Be there
Hit the floor ‘fore you caught me

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

Every so often
Feels like I’ve forgotten
And then you find me
Blind me
Remind me
And it’s like time’s rewinding
I’m no one anymore
Don’t know what I’m looking for
I wish you’d hold me
Like you told me
I’m only
Hoping for what is no more
Or hoping for some just reward
Or hoping you’ll come through that door

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

So you’re going
And now I’m here lonely
Seems like the loving
Was nothing
But stuffing
Now it’s empty in there
Love doesn’t know how to spare
It teaches you how not to care

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

Does it even make a difference?
Does your leaving make any sense?
I don’t know if it can
So close your eyes and listen

 

Half-Empty Table for Two

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

Better days in the shade
And someone to take this chair away
And what can I do with these plates?
And what can I do with this place?
What do I do with this space?
I’m here and I can’t see your face
I found out I could be replaced
And nothing in my world is safe
I will never be the same
I wonder if you’ll change your name

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

New love to find me
But love has bad timing
You still remind me
Of what was behind me
And why can’t I get over you?
Because I can’t get someone new
I’ve still got pairs of your shoes
And brushes for all your hairdos
And photos of you everywhere
And I still think this isn’t fair
I know that we both truly care
So why aren’t you here and not there?

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

Spring, summer, fall
Anniversaries
Graduation days
Flowers and candy
Holding hands
And a kiss
Making love
As you wish
Nothing I’d dare forget
Nothing I’d dare regret
So much that I miss
What did I do to this?
I didn’t give you my best

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for
You
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for
You
Nothing else that I can do
With this half-empty table for two