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A Lie Put To Music

I fall in love with you
Suddenly I’m a poet
I’ve given you my heart
You ran away and stole it
It’s not as if you’re moved
By anything I wrote then
I couldn’t get to you
Through all the things we’ve broken

It’s a lie put to music
So why even do it?
It really is quite useless
It’s a lie put to music
So why don’t we remove it?
Why put us through that?

You could be someone new
Or who I gave my life to
What does it matter who?
I’m just a guy you’ll lie to
No matter what I feel
I’ll never even say so
I can’t imagine real
When love is so painful

It’s a lie put to music
So why even do it?
It really is quite useless
It’s a lie put to music
So why don’t we remove it?
Why put us through that?

All these false songs
When love is wrong
The feeling’s so strong
But doesn’t belong
And it doesn’t take long
To make a man fall
And love crushes all
With its mad siren’s call

It’s a lie put to music
So why even do it?
It really is quite useless
A lie put to music
So why don’t we remove it?
Why put us through that?
A lie put to music
Isn’t an improvement
I haven’t met the truth yet
Or is it in this song?
Is it in this song?
Is it in this song?
Is it in this song?

Mathematics

There’s a zero
Point zero zero one four five
Chance
That you’d ever look my way
And the odds
Are too slim to compile
And it’s slowing down
My frame rate
All I’ve known
Is when I do the math
Subtraction
Is all I’ve ever had
And love
Finds new ways to divide
But could
You be the one I get to add?

Mathematics
Never was my thing
So I don’t know if
There even is a one
I’ve had it
With these kinds of dreams
Because they never
Add up the way I want

And the number
Of people I know
Is more than
The ones I’d care to trust
As the problems
Multiply by fives
All around me
In a rough kind of radius
I wonder if
You could become my prime
Because I’m sad
In ways I cannot sum
I wish
That you could become mine
Then you’d
Be divided by yourself and one

Mathematics
Never was my thing
So I don’t know if
There even is a one
I’ve had it
With these kinds of dreams
Because they never
Add up the way I want

And the shape
Of love is long forgotten
With it, too,
The calculus of lust
I’d find
Or measure the right angle
To approach
But I’m afraid I’d get too close
Miscalculating
Is the real danger
And hope
The least common thing I’ve known
Is there
A fraction of a chance
A tenth of a tenth
For a romance?
I’m tired
Of just being one half
So I figured
At least that I might ask

Mathematics
Never was my thing
So I don’t know if
There even is a one
I’ve had it
With these kinds of dreams
Because they never
Add up the way I want
It’s a game
That’s always zero sum
Being alone
Always feels like less than one

 

Commentary:

This isn’t about anyone in particular, I just had an idea.  Not nearly as nerdy as someone with actual math skills could have made it, but I tried.  I’m sure it’s been done before.  There hasn’t been much inspiration lately in the love category.  Not that I’d be looking for love or something.  The probabilities seem too unfavorable in that regard.  I’m still in a state of relationship limbo–can’t afford to get out, literally, but also experiencing none of the actual benefits of a relationship.  Anyway, I had a pleasant dream about meeting someone, and maybe it helped give me a good enough feeling to write this.  Thanks for reading.

Light Switch

What’s worse?
To be seen by you?
It hurts
To be invisible
While you
Could just catch my eye
Then do
Not a thing but walk on by
I feel
More than I imagined
And still
Can’t believe that happened
How did
You get so close to me
And yet
You haven’t done anything

Light switch
Can you turn back off?
I wish
You wouldn’t let me fall
For her

Supposed
To be gone by now
Too close
The silence is too loud
Turn down
Because it’s scarred so hard
Around
You I feel it’s gone
You’d melt
The ice inside of me
But who’s telling
These lies but me?
No one
But you won’t go away
I want
So bad for you to stay

Light switch
Can you turn back off?
I wish
You wouldn’t let me fall
For her

I don’t want to
Be the one to
Hear you say
The words, “I want you”
I’m not here for
Being fearful
You would go
Then all the tears flow
I am crying
I am finding
No more love left
Here inside me
Do not start this
Brokenhearted
Man to hoping
For a starlit
Romantic day
Coming his way
Followed by
A love betrayed

Light switch
Can you turn back off?
I wish
You wouldn’t let me fall
For her
I don’t want to
Feel this hurt
In case you
Haven’t heard

Black Friday

I’m a husband and father
Only son and stepdaughter
Let me tell you the tale
Like a lamb to the slaughter
Then betrayed and forgotten
Yet I feel like I failed
She says no one will blame me
I don’t think she can see
That the mirror, it does
I had all the proof then
Of all that she was doing
And I still held my tongue
Now our marriage is ruined
And now I feel foolish
She was seeing someone

Let me tell you the deal and
It’s half off for my feelings
What a sale I have found
When the truth was revealed then
Everything became real
Are you happier now?

I saw things in the browser
And the warning came louder
When you went for a walk
And it lasted an hour
But still I was a coward
And we never did talk
You weren’t wearing your ring and
I just didn’t believe that
You would lie to me so
Our love died at the scene and
You were still acting mean
You’d decided to go
You could probably see it
Bloated there in a stream
Did you strangle it, though?

Let me tell you the deal and
It’s half off for my feelings
What a sale I have found
When the truth was revealed then
Everything became real
Are you happier now?

Now it’s three-quarters off and
Did you solve any problems?
Glad I kept the receipt
‘Cause I’m taking you back and
Paying for it, at that
Because you chose to leave
What a buyer’s remorse that
Our love became a war
And you stabbed me at last
I can’t take anymore and
You surrendered before
I could raise up a flag
But then I look at the price tag
We destroyed what we had
There can be no return
And yet you were my wife and
Here we had a good life
Now I’m watching it burn
And my tears are like fire
Was all of this required?
Was it worth it for you?
I would call you a liar
But I live the reminder
That’s enough of the truth
That this is what you do
To people who love you

Let me tell you the deal and
It’s half off for my feelings
What a sale I have found
When the truth was revealed then
Everything became real
Are you happier now?

Alone here in a crowd

Where love is not allowed

Commentary:

I have been thinking of writing a song with this title for awhile, because she left the day after Thanksgiving (14 months ago), often known around these parts as Black Friday. I wasn’t sure about telling this tale, but the idea for the specifics of the song came to me this morning, and I just went with it. It’s not my wish to paint her as a bad person, as I think with any relationship there are mistakes made by each person. I think I needed to do at least one song of this sort. There’s still more to do to find peace with everything. I hope one day, I find it. But at least I am at a point where I am ready to move forward with life. Despite my last song, I can’t say I have met anyone new, not anyone attainable, at least. Nor would I pursue that sort of thing as I am now. This is just a place I visit to express the feelings, and perhaps preserve them, then move on. I don’t really need to explain, I suppose. But I figured, if you’re reading, maybe you might be curious. I don’t really know what to do with this blog, or how I would want it to look in an ideal world. I’m just using it to share my writings, and through them, to share a piece of myself. Thanks for reading.

It’s Not A Date

You
Wait for me
In a café downtown like
A mystery queen
And who
Would I be
To refuse to surround myself
With silly dreams
Of you
You and me
What can be?
We will see

I know it’s not late
And it’s not a date
But I just can’t wait
To hear what you’ll say
I know it’s not fate
And it’s not a date
But I just can’t wait
To see you today

Hope
Precious hope
I know better than to
But I just can’t handle it
Oh
If I could know
That it’s worth it to have you
That love’s not a battle
It’s home
Safe at home
The thought is heartwarming
But my heart still warns me
Of you
It won’t be
It’s not easy
To breathe

I know it’s not late
And it’s not a date
But I just can’t wait
To hear what you’ll say
I know it’s not fate
And it’s not a date
But I just can’t wait
To see you today

Hello
How are you?
I’m so pleased to meet you
And I can’t believe you would
Choose
To see me
Out of all of the people
That surely want to see you
I know
There aren’t words
That can end
All the hurts
And you
Don’t know me
And maybe
We won’t be
I don’t
Yet believe
Finding love
Is easy
And so
When you leave
Let it go
Forget me

And for my own sake
I hope it’s not a date
So why can’t I wait
To behold your face?
I’d pray for this day
But it’s not a date
And it’s not our fate
We’ll go our own ways
What can I say?

As Much As I Can Get

I
Take away the scars
Upon my heart
You leave
I
Take away the parts
All the soft and hard
Memories
You
May be here yet gone
Like the sound of
Melodies
You
May be right and wrong
And I miss you
Terribly

As much as I can get
Even if nothing’s left
Pieces here I carry
Of a love still left unburied
As much as I can get
It lingers like regret
Lonely here and scary
To think that’s all I’m getting
Of you

The
Touches of your hand
Glimpses of your
Lovely smile
A
Picture on a stand
Things I haven’t seen
In awhile
Time
Took us our own ways
Wonder how it ends
For us
I’m
Waiting for the day
When I find someone
To trust

As much as I can get
Even if nothing’s left
Pieces here I carry
Of a love still left unburied
As much as I can get
It lingers like regret
Lonely here and scary
To think that’s all I’m getting
Of you

A whisper
Or a smell
The joy
Of being held
When you were happy dancing
Or a moment of romancing
A letter
That you wrote
That restored
All my hope
But time, the greatest gift
That you could spend it with
The person
You once loved
Who do you
Now think of?
I know it isn’t me and
I know that we can’t be
So what
Am I to do
With memories
Of you?
They’re breaking me to pieces
I fought and was defeated
It’s time
To let it go
And face
All the unknown
I face it here alone
In the shell of our old home
With

As much as I can get
Even if nothing’s left
Pieces here we carry
Of a love still left unburied
As much as I can get
It lingers like regret
Lonely here and scary
To think that’s all I’m getting
Of you

High Society

We’ll shop in the districts, baby
There’s no window shopping cart for me
I’ll drown you in kisses, maybe
I’ll make you see visions, probably
We’re driving my car, dangerous
My heart’s in a race it can’t complete
I’ll make you say, “Baby, yes!
I want you in first place here with me.”

We could live like kings and queens
Just imagine how perfect it would be
And I’ll be your princess,
Your lover, your mistress
High society
With a love like me
You know you’ll never need anything
And I’ll be like Christmas
Your gift wrapped in this dress
High society

I fell asleep on your heart last night
I’m reckless and passionate, it seems
There’s nothing in my life I like
But chasing after the latest things
But you’re my diamonds, baby
With you on my arm I’m sparkling
You might think I’m lying, maybe
But you are the gentleman for me

We could live like kings and queens
Just imagine how perfect it would be
And I’ll be your princess,
Your lover, your mistress
High society
With a love like me
You know you’ll never need anything
And I’ll be like Christmas
Your gift wrapped in this dress
High society

And I still want more
It’s like you opened my double doors
And what you’re waiting for
Is everything you deserved before
You and I will soar
‘Cause you’re the perfect score
I’m loving what’s in store
With you I’m never bored

We could live like kings and queens
Just imagine how perfect it would be
And I’ll be your princess,
Your lover, your mistress
High society
With a love like me
You know you’ll never need anything
And I’ll be like Christmas
Your gift wrapped in this dress
High society

 

Commentary:

I have no idea where this one came from, but it popped into my head so I wrote it down.  I was somewhat thinking of the seductive nature of a credit card, personified, but then it kind of took off from there.  I tried writing from the woman’s point of view this time, obviously a rich woman, unless perhaps that’s symbolic.  You could look at it that way.  I really wanted to write something new, since it felt like I hadn’t posted anything in awhile.  Well, thanks for reading.

Lessons of Love

I have been in love
Yes, more than once
But never found
Just what I want
It’s not in her eyes
Or in a kiss
Now I see there’s
So much more than this
Because love is not
What you can see
It’s about what you
Do really need

Yet love is strong
And I am weak
There’s so much more
For it to teach
I only hope
That I can learn
And this time find
What I deserve

It’s in her voice
And in her laugh
With her I can
Forget the past
When we talk it’s like
Time becomes lost
And nothing else
Is worth my thoughts
It’s about more than
Holding her hand
It’s knowing that
She understands

Yet love is strong
And I am weak
There’s so much more
For it to teach
I only hope
That I can learn
And this time find
What I deserve

So quietly
How love unfolds
As morning dew
Makes flowers grow
When it happens
I suppose I’ll know
And when I do
I’ll tell her so
If the stars will shine
On me this time
I know that I
Will treat her right

Yet love is strong
And I am weak
There’s so much more
For it to teach
I only hope
That I can learn
And this time find
What I deserve

The Greatest Lie

Love is a series
Of stops and starts
Till it stops your heart
Love isn’t really
What you think you’ve got
No, it’s really not
Love is a trick of
The best of you
Then the rest of you
Love is what I’m sick of
An obsession too
How it stresses you

Love is the greatest lie
Of them all
Without it no one would cry
As they fall
Love causes more problems
Than it solves
They say it’s the greatest time
But they’re wrong

Love is a liar
It says, “Listen, here’s
What you want to hear.
Nothing’s required–
Except your life
Everything inside.”
Love is an illness
It poisons you
Tells you what to do
Wish I could kill it
That’s why I’m going to
Be avoiding you

Love is the greatest lie
Of them all
Without it no one would cry
As they fall
Love causes more problems
Than it solves
They say it’s the greatest time
But they’re wrong

Why do I keep coming back to you
When I don’t have the right attitude?
I won’t believe the sweet platitudes
My heart is still chasing after you
I’d rather meet love with my head
So I see the dangers ahead
But all of that’s supposed to be gone
From now on

Love is the greatest lie
Of them all
Without it no one would cry
As they fall
Love causes more problems
Than it solves
They say it’s the greatest time
But they’re wrong

Junk Mail

I’m done with the day
Then I see your name
When I open the mailbox
And it’s back again
Like it was the same
It’s not like I really forgot
My heart is in shreds
And our love is dead
And yet here this envelope torments me
You’re still in my head
The words that you said
But I don’t think you could forgive me
And you decided to set sail
You should have taken all your mail

I almost
Want to forward
Your junk mail
To you
I know it’s
Not a problem
It’s something
To do
I almost
Want to forward
Your junk mail
To you

It gathers in piles
It has for awhile
I guess they never got the message
My heart would go wild
When I saw your smile
And even now I don’t regret it
You changed up the story
Now your territory
Is all uprooted and everywhere
Put yourself before me
And then you destroy me
But maybe in hindsight it’s fair
And you decided to set sail
Without you these walls feel like jail

I almost
Want to forward
Your junk mail
To you
I know it’s
Not a problem
It’s something
To do
I almost
Want to forward
Your junk mail
To you

It’s moments like these that I fail
How love can burn down to the tiniest detail
Why couldn’t they just send e-mail
Instead of leaving me this brokenhearted trail?

I almost
Want to forward
Your junk mail
To you
I know it’s
Not a problem
It’s something
To do
I almost
Want to forward
Your junk mail
To you
To you
To you
I want to forward it
To you
To you
I’d forward your junk mail