Tag Archives: Love

Estranged, A Lament of Love

Love is for the brave,
They say
But I’m afraid
Of its chains
And afraid
Of the change
Nothing that’s great
Comes without
Many pains
Look at how easily
It’s estranged

I looked up
You were gone
As if I
Did you wrong
I was weak
But a man should be strong
Have you forgotten we
Made a promise to be
One of body
For the world to see?

When a woman is new
Look what love makes me do
Run and hide
Like a boy still in school
Like the force
Of the moon
Pulls me closer
And soon
I will act out the role
Of the fool

I have no great armor
For love, it is stronger
It cleaves eager hearts
Into two
It turns back to stab
Me, and grabs
What I have
Precious time, precious hope
Sacred memories
It acts without honor
Or mercy, it’s harder
Than stone
I’m alone
On my knees
It makes lovers glad
And it still makes me sad
For I know what was stolen
From me

Tears in the rain
As I patiently wait
For the lie to deceive me again
Ever the same
It awaits to betray
I cannot waste my dreams here again
So the fear, guilt and shame
Are all that here remain
As the altar I built is now ash
What can be gained
From a life lived this way
When the future is more of the past?

Love is for the brave,
They say
But I’m afraid
Of its chains
And afraid
Of the change
Nothing that’s great
Comes without
Many pains
Look at how easily
It’s estranged
I will not let it blind me again
I will war with it until the end
It’s a lie, not worth dying for and
What a dangerous trap
To fall in

Love is insane
Not a game to be played
It will empty you out
All the same
And then fill you with rage
Send you through every stage
It’s a tragedy
Waiting to happen
To you
I hate what it can do
I hate love and love
Hates me too
I hate love
And love
Hates me too

Advertisements

Blue November

“You know I’m not coming back”
Fade to black
Looks like it’s love that I lacked
Face the facts
Feels like you’re still in the air
It’s captured you
But really you’ve gone over there
Haven’t you?

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

I took all your books off the shelves
Your pictures too
As if I could somehow dispel
The myth of you
But I can’t let go of the ring
The promise made
I still feel the touch of your hand
As you fall away

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

I can see you on the steps
It’s as if you never left
I’m never catching my breath
Love lost can feel like it’s death
I never will be the same
Cannot stand hearing your name
Maybe one day that will change
But wouldn’t that be very strange
To go
Through this life alone
You know
This was your home

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

The Heartache

I could fall in love again
A thousand times
And what good would it do?
Never got enough of you
By my side
And with all I went through
But it didn’t benefit
Seems you were better when
I wasn’t there
Now it’s me you’re getting rid of
Now it’s you the one who’s fed up
And me here so scared

But I’ll survive
The heartache
I’m alive
In heartache
You were mine
My heartache
But in time
The heartache
Will make me just fine

Still surprised to find
Some clothes that smell like
Just like you do
I see your eyes inside
This hole in my life
Just like I used to
I’m speaking to you on the phone
I’m bleeding through and feeling so alone
And it’s all so unreal
Wondering what’s going on
Wondering what’s going wrong
That got us both here

But I’ll survive
The heartache
I’m alive
In heartache
You were mine
My heartache
But in time
The heartache
Will make me just fine

Or maybe not
Does she hate me not?
Or hate me so bad
Maybe we forgot
Just how great it got
Before we were sad
From a distance you
You seem so different too
Like through rose-colored glass
And it hits me too
From a certain point of view
We were in love in the past

Why couldn’t we make it last
The heartache
What we had
Was heartbreak
All I am
Is heartache
Can’t really stand
The heartache
It’s breaking me down
But I won’t make a sound

When You Come This Way Again

Our last moment, it lasts
Even though the past is the past
I gave you all that I am
I put a ring on your hand
So now I don’t understand
Why I’m not part of your plan

When you come this way again
I wonder will it be intense
I want to know if we will end
And what if we can be again?
When you come this way again
Are you really going to leave again?
Or maybe make-believe again
And give me what I’ve seen again?
When you come this way again

I’ve given more than I asked
Forgiven more than I can
I’d forfeit all that I have
If I could just have you back
All of the love that we had
Until the day that you ran

When you come this way again
I wonder will it be intense
I want to know if we will end
And what if we can be again?
When you come this way again
Are you really going to leave again?
Or maybe make-believe again
And give me what I’ve seen again?
When you come this way again

Your memory
Is stronger than I am
You’ll never be
Out of second chances
What you do to me
Has gotten out of hand
You’re fooling me,
And I would fall right in
And we would fall in love and then
And then…

When you come this way again
It would be a love intense
It would make zero sense
And maybe we would see the end
But I don’t believe I can
I won’t let go of your hand

When you come this way again

Lost My Hope

Hurry to work
And hurry home
Try to hide the hurt
Pretend I’m not alone
And the pain in me
The deepest grief
To the same degree
From the day you leave
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Let the TV run
Just to have some noise
Think of the children
My wonderful girl and boy
And it breaks me down
‘Cause I see them again
I hear their voices
Can’t breathe again
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

There’s an empty bed
And an empty fridge
Ever since you left
And took the kids
There’s an empty heart
Where your love has been
For a moment I forgot
But now it’s back again
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Seasons change
When you go away
From the hardest fall
To the bitter winter
It’s not the same
When you can’t look my way
And even when you call again
My heart, it wants to stall again
I love and miss you
But it’s so hard to be strong
So you were right
And I was wrong
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Listen

Melancholy
Whenever you call me
I play like it’s
Alright
Good night
Sleep tight
And then I just say goodbye
I’m falling
Just like you taught me
But I am so scared
You can’t
Be there
Hit the floor ‘fore you caught me

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

Every so often
Feels like I’ve forgotten
And then you find me
Blind me
Remind me
And it’s like time’s rewinding
I’m no one anymore
Don’t know what I’m looking for
I wish you’d hold me
Like you told me
I’m only
Hoping for what is no more
Or hoping for some just reward
Or hoping you’ll come through that door

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

So you’re going
And now I’m here lonely
Seems like the loving
Was nothing
But stuffing
Now it’s empty in there
Love doesn’t know how to spare
It teaches you how not to care

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

Does it even make a difference?
Does your leaving make any sense?
I don’t know if it can
So close your eyes and listen

 

Half-Empty Table for Two

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

Better days in the shade
And someone to take this chair away
And what can I do with these plates?
And what can I do with this place?
What do I do with this space?
I’m here and I can’t see your face
I found out I could be replaced
And nothing in my world is safe
I will never be the same
I wonder if you’ll change your name

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

New love to find me
But love has bad timing
You still remind me
Of what was behind me
And why can’t I get over you?
Because I can’t get someone new
I’ve still got pairs of your shoes
And brushes for all your hairdos
And photos of you everywhere
And I still think this isn’t fair
I know that we both truly care
So why aren’t you here and not there?

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

Spring, summer, fall
Anniversaries
Graduation days
Flowers and candy
Holding hands
And a kiss
Making love
As you wish
Nothing I’d dare forget
Nothing I’d dare regret
So much that I miss
What did I do to this?
I didn’t give you my best

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for
You
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for
You
Nothing else that I can do
With this half-empty table for two

“You Look Like Me”

I wonder if
You dream of me
In your heart
I’m hoping that
You’ve need of me
In your arms
I saw you and
I dreamed of you
Here with me
My heart, it might
Believe that you’re
Meant to be

That day we met
I heard you say,
“You look like me”
I wished that then
There was a chance
You would like me–
But not likely

Make up excuses
Just to see
Your face again
I’ll never get
To speak to you
And take your hand
I probably
Won’t ever even
Know your name
My problems seemed
Like nothing then–
That day you came,
And everything was changed

That day we met
I heard you say,
“You look like me”
I wished that then
There was a chance
You would like me–
But not likely

I know you were
Just being nice
So why obsess?
My heart has had
Enough of life
It needs to rest
So I won’t waste
Your precious time
With foolish dreams
And I won’t make
Reasons to cry–
Those I don’t need
They’re always here with me

That day we met
I heard you say,
“You look like me”
I wished that then
There was a chance
You would like me–
But we’re not meant to be
It’s not likely

Minus One

The h’ors doeuvres
Have been served
And I’m
Still in my seat
Playing back
What I heard
When you
Said you would leave
Now and then
I pretend
It doesn’t hurt me
We were much more
Than friends
Till you
You deserted me

Baby you can call me
Minus one
And you can miss me with that
You think I’m out here
Having fun
But I’m just wishing you’re back
And you RSVP’d
With your ring
And I think
For once in my life I was wrong
Now I’m minus one

Now the music
Will play
And I
Won’t get up to dance
And I’m counting
The days
Since you
Changed all my plans
I am counting
The ways
That I
Must have done you wrong
And I’m seeing
Your face
And now
Realizing you’re gone

Baby you can call me
Minus one
And you can miss me with that
You think I’m out here
Having fun
But I’m just wishing you’re back
And you RSVP’d
With your ring
And I think
For once in my life I was wrong
Now I’m minus one

And now all that’s left for me
Is the clean-up
All the dirt in plain display
Trying to understand
What leads up
To you deciding to go away
Every soirée has to end
Sometime
We heard our music winding down
But this was meant to be
A lifetime
The table is empty
When you’re not around

Baby you can call me
Minus one
And you can miss me with that
You think I’m out here
Having fun
But I’m just wishing you’re back
And you RSVP’d
With your ring
And I think
For once in my life I was wrong
Now I’m minus one

Baby you can call me
Minus one
And you can miss me with that
I see that I was
Not the one
But I’ve still got your back
You could RSVP
With your ring
And I’d think
For once in my life I was wrong
But I’m still minus one

Broken Mirror

I thought I’d won your heart before
Not knowing what I’d lose
I won the battles, lost the war
What did I try to prove?
I tried to cultivate our love
The soil was cold and hard
I know you loved me well enough
How did I break your heart?

They say a broken mirror
Can bring seven years’ bad luck
I’d wait seven hundred more years
If you would fall in love
With me again

There was a sweet November morn
When you lay next to me
And I could never want for more
I’d found my destiny
Yet now you seem so far away
Even in the same bed
I’m pouring out my heart today
But you won’t notice it

They say a broken mirror
Can bring seven years’ bad luck
I’d wait seven hundred more years
If you would fall in love
With me again

Shattered pieces of ourselves
That we don’t want to see
That perfect picture on the shelf
A happy family
But if you had it your way
I believe you’d want to go
It hurts in ways I cannot say
That you won’t tell me so
It’s like we live in different worlds
But our vows haven’t changed
The edges of it cut me now
Though I don’t feel the pain

They say a broken mirror
Can bring seven years’ bad luck
I’d wait seven hundred more years
If you would fall in love
With me again