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Lessons of Love

I have been in love
Yes, more than once
But never found
Just what I want
It’s not in her eyes
Or in a kiss
Now I see there’s
So much more than this
Because love is not
What you can see
It’s about what you
Do really need

Yet love is strong
And I am weak
There’s so much more
For it to teach
I only hope
That I can learn
And this time find
What I deserve

It’s in her voice
And in her laugh
With her I can
Forget the past
When we talk it’s like
Time becomes lost
And nothing else
Is worth my thoughts
It’s about more than
Holding her hand
It’s knowing that
She understands

Yet love is strong
And I am weak
There’s so much more
For it to teach
I only hope
That I can learn
And this time find
What I deserve

So quietly
How love unfolds
As morning dew
Makes flowers grow
When it happens
I suppose I’ll know
And when I do
I’ll tell her so
If the stars will shine
On me this time
I know that I
Will treat her right

Yet love is strong
And I am weak
There’s so much more
For it to teach
I only hope
That I can learn
And this time find
What I deserve

My Last Life

On our summer breeze
Love is sweet for you and me
In everything I please you
And every day I need you
Loving you is treasure
Joyful beyond measure
I don’t want to see
A world where you can’t be
With you my life is better
Like water in the desert

I’ll spend my last sunset
With you
I’ll have no regrets
I choose
To spend my last life here
With you

In the winter storms you’re
The one who keeps me warmer
When you hold me closer
The time, it goes much slower
And our love grows stronger
Even with our faults or
Arguments we lost and
Even with the problems
With you life is simple
You give so much to live for

I’ll spend my last sunset
With you
I’ll have no regrets
I choose
To spend my last life here
With you

No matter the season
Or the reason
Your love, it keeps pleasing
You make me believe with
Just a little squeeze and
You make my heart keep on beating
I feel like I’m dreaming
And you’re all I’m seeking
I promise I’ll never be leaving
You
What I wouldn’t
Do

I’ll spend my last sunset
With you
I’ll have no regrets
I choose
To spend my last life here
With you
To spend my last life here
Will do

 

Commentary:

This song is not inspired by any real events, given that my wife left me fairly recently, but I had the idea for it, so I wrote it.  It must be nice to be loved this way.  I wish I’d loved her this way, but clearly I didn’t, or she’d still be here.

Moving right along…I see this song as a duet, perhaps with each person taking two of the lines in turn.  I’m sure someone more musically inclined could put it to music.  If anyone ever does put any of my songs to a tune, I’d love to hear it–this has always been about making the art for me, not recognition.  In the meantime, perhaps I need to learn to play an instrument…But thanks for reading.  Hope you enjoyed it.

Broken Promises

 

The winds of change
Can’t erode
This heart of stone
I’m in some pain
And I’m alone
Here, on my own
Last night
I dreamed of you
What can I do?
It’s not right
I didn’t mean to
Do this to you

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

Will I forget
The touch of your hand?
Don’t think I can
But my regret
Is I haven’t been
More of a man
You opened the door
I watched you walk through
What you’re looking for, I
Couldn’t give it to you

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

So why’d you disappear
When I need you here?
It’s so very clear
That I don’t have to fear
If I feel you near

In daydreams
You wiped my tears away
And smiled at me
Then decided to stay
What good are dreams
As if movie scenes
Just the same pretending
With a happy ending?
Even fools could see
That we’d never be
But it was worth the trying
Although I feel like dying

And I did
I died for you
In the end
What good did it do?

You’ve abandoned me
Though we planned to be
Wouldn’t have to see
Broken promises
But the promise is
Still the same for me

Blue November

“You know I’m not coming back”
Fade to black
Looks like it’s love that I lacked
Face the facts
Feels like you’re still in the air
It’s captured you
But really you’ve gone over there
Haven’t you?

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

I took all your books off the shelves
Your pictures too
As if I could somehow dispel
The myth of you
But I can’t let go of the ring
The promise made
I still feel the touch of your hand
As you fall away

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

I can see you on the steps
It’s as if you never left
I’m never catching my breath
Love lost can feel like it’s death
I never will be the same
Cannot stand hearing your name
Maybe one day that will change
But wouldn’t that be very strange
To go
Through this life alone
You know
This was your home

You gave me a
Blue November
And what can I do
But surrender
‘Cause I’m lost in the pain

The Heartache

I could fall in love again
A thousand times
And what good would it do?
Never got enough of you
By my side
And with all I went through
But it didn’t benefit
Seems you were better when
I wasn’t there
Now it’s me you’re getting rid of
Now it’s you the one who’s fed up
And me here so scared

But I’ll survive
The heartache
I’m alive
In heartache
You were mine
My heartache
But in time
The heartache
Will make me just fine

Still surprised to find
Some clothes that smell like
Just like you do
I see your eyes inside
This hole in my life
Just like I used to
I’m speaking to you on the phone
I’m bleeding through and feeling so alone
And it’s all so unreal
Wondering what’s going on
Wondering what’s going wrong
That got us both here

But I’ll survive
The heartache
I’m alive
In heartache
You were mine
My heartache
But in time
The heartache
Will make me just fine

Or maybe not
Does she hate me not?
Or hate me so bad
Maybe we forgot
Just how great it got
Before we were sad
From a distance you
You seem so different too
Like through rose-colored glass
And it hits me too
From a certain point of view
We were in love in the past

Why couldn’t we make it last
The heartache
What we had
Was heartbreak
All I am
Is heartache
Can’t really stand
The heartache
It’s breaking me down
But I won’t make a sound

When You Come This Way Again

Our last moment, it lasts
Even though the past is the past
I gave you all that I am
I put a ring on your hand
So now I don’t understand
Why I’m not part of your plan

When you come this way again
I wonder will it be intense
I want to know if we will end
And what if we can be again?
When you come this way again
Are you really going to leave again?
Or maybe make-believe again
And give me what I’ve seen again?
When you come this way again

I’ve given more than I asked
Forgiven more than I can
I’d forfeit all that I have
If I could just have you back
All of the love that we had
Until the day that you ran

When you come this way again
I wonder will it be intense
I want to know if we will end
And what if we can be again?
When you come this way again
Are you really going to leave again?
Or maybe make-believe again
And give me what I’ve seen again?
When you come this way again

Your memory
Is stronger than I am
You’ll never be
Out of second chances
What you do to me
Has gotten out of hand
You’re fooling me,
And I would fall right in
And we would fall in love and then
And then…

When you come this way again
It would be a love intense
It would make zero sense
And maybe we would see the end
But I don’t believe I can
I won’t let go of your hand

When you come this way again

Lost My Hope

Hurry to work
And hurry home
Try to hide the hurt
Pretend I’m not alone
And the pain in me
The deepest grief
To the same degree
From the day you leave
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Let the TV run
Just to have some noise
Think of the children
My wonderful girl and boy
And it breaks me down
‘Cause I see them again
I hear their voices
Can’t breathe again
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

There’s an empty bed
And an empty fridge
Ever since you left
And took the kids
There’s an empty heart
Where your love has been
For a moment I forgot
But now it’s back again
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Seasons change
When you go away
From the hardest fall
To the bitter winter
It’s not the same
When you can’t look my way
And even when you call again
My heart, it wants to stall again
I love and miss you
But it’s so hard to be strong
So you were right
And I was wrong
And I don’t know
How to hold on
I’ve lost my hope
Because you’re gone

Listen

Melancholy
Whenever you call me
I play like it’s
Alright
Good night
Sleep tight
And then I just say goodbye
I’m falling
Just like you taught me
But I am so scared
You can’t
Be there
Hit the floor ‘fore you caught me

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

Every so often
Feels like I’ve forgotten
And then you find me
Blind me
Remind me
And it’s like time’s rewinding
I’m no one anymore
Don’t know what I’m looking for
I wish you’d hold me
Like you told me
I’m only
Hoping for what is no more
Or hoping for some just reward
Or hoping you’ll come through that door

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

So you’re going
And now I’m here lonely
Seems like the loving
Was nothing
But stuffing
Now it’s empty in there
Love doesn’t know how to spare
It teaches you how not to care

My heartbeat
It feels like it’s skipping
You took what was given
From beginning
To ending
Just close your eyes
And listen

Does it even make a difference?
Does your leaving make any sense?
I don’t know if it can
So close your eyes and listen

 

Half-Empty Table for Two

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

Better days in the shade
And someone to take this chair away
And what can I do with these plates?
And what can I do with this place?
What do I do with this space?
I’m here and I can’t see your face
I found out I could be replaced
And nothing in my world is safe
I will never be the same
I wonder if you’ll change your name

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

New love to find me
But love has bad timing
You still remind me
Of what was behind me
And why can’t I get over you?
Because I can’t get someone new
I’ve still got pairs of your shoes
And brushes for all your hairdos
And photos of you everywhere
And I still think this isn’t fair
I know that we both truly care
So why aren’t you here and not there?

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for

Spring, summer, fall
Anniversaries
Graduation days
Flowers and candy
Holding hands
And a kiss
Making love
As you wish
Nothing I’d dare forget
Nothing I’d dare regret
So much that I miss
What did I do to this?
I didn’t give you my best

Half-empty table for two
Not a whole lot I can do
I sit here waiting for you
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for
You
Half-empty table for two
I sit here waiting for
You
Nothing else that I can do
With this half-empty table for two

Minus One

The h’ors doeuvres
Have been served
And I’m
Still in my seat
Playing back
What I heard
When you
Said you would leave
Now and then
I pretend
It doesn’t hurt me
We were much more
Than friends
Till you
You deserted me

Baby you can call me
Minus one
And you can miss me with that
You think I’m out here
Having fun
But I’m just wishing you’re back
And you RSVP’d
With your ring
And I think
For once in my life I was wrong
Now I’m minus one

Now the music
Will play
And I
Won’t get up to dance
And I’m counting
The days
Since you
Changed all my plans
I am counting
The ways
That I
Must have done you wrong
And I’m seeing
Your face
And now
Realizing you’re gone

Baby you can call me
Minus one
And you can miss me with that
You think I’m out here
Having fun
But I’m just wishing you’re back
And you RSVP’d
With your ring
And I think
For once in my life I was wrong
Now I’m minus one

And now all that’s left for me
Is the clean-up
All the dirt in plain display
Trying to understand
What leads up
To you deciding to go away
Every soirée has to end
Sometime
We heard our music winding down
But this was meant to be
A lifetime
The table is empty
When you’re not around

Baby you can call me
Minus one
And you can miss me with that
You think I’m out here
Having fun
But I’m just wishing you’re back
And you RSVP’d
With your ring
And I think
For once in my life I was wrong
Now I’m minus one

Baby you can call me
Minus one
And you can miss me with that
I see that I was
Not the one
But I’ve still got your back
You could RSVP
With your ring
And I’d think
For once in my life I was wrong
But I’m still minus one